The worrying that you didn't do enough and the worrying that you were too involved and watching your 18 year old pull out of the driveway and knowing that, in some kind of way, it is over, and you botched it. You didn't play enough and you didn't cook enough and you didn't teach her to crochet when she asked. And then watching your 44 year old pull out of the driveway...it never ends. The heart link, the mother link, is tungsten fast, and if it is pulled on too tightly, it can shatter a heart.
And so, I taught my 18 year old to crochet, and her father and I stopped waiting on the driveway for her to come around the corner when driving home from her nighttime Biology class. And it wasn't enough, and it was more than enough, and really, all we can do is love. Whether they're on the couch in the living room, or a state away, or Heaven away, all we can do is love. And that's all anyone really wanted to begin with anyway.
Pax Christi,
~Michelle
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What you wrote here is just lovely. Thank you for sharing!!! ~AMY
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